Just the other night, I had a strange dream. I was in the hospital with cancer and my mom became so worried about me that she made herself sick. I walked up next to her and said, "Ye of little faith, why are you afraid? I'm the one with cancer and I'm not even afraid. Why would I be with Jesus by my side." It's not that I thought I was bigger than the cancer, it was that I knew God was going to take care of me, no matter what may come, until my purpose on this earth had been served. In other words, I knew my song had not been sung yet.
You see, I believe God speaks to me in my dreams and my thoughts. He teaches me things about life little by little without actually coming down to earth and telling me to my face. What I learned in that dream was something I should have realized a long time ago.
When I had my horrible experience of a senior year in high school, I thought I had to start living life for me, put my needs first, and focus on my life. I've realized however that is the relative definition of the word "selfish". To think that this life, your life, is about you.
The reality of it is, this life, my life, is about more than just me. It's about those I help and inspire. It's about how I use the gifts God gave me to help and inspire others. It's about allowing God to lead my footsteps, not my brain. All this doesn't mean losing sight of who I am, my sense of individuality, and my purpose in life, it means that my purpose has to do with those around me. If I take care of others and do what God asks of me, he will take care of me.
I may not know my full purpose in life or what God has in store for my future, but I do know that I want to change the lives of others while learning about mine. Whether I touch the hearts of millions or the heart of one, all I know is that I am going to do something great. When I do, God's name is the only one receiving the glory and the praise.
