Trust and Faith

As a person in general, one thing I have struggled with over the years and still struggle with from time to time is trust. If you have read my other posts, you would know that I have been hurt quite a few times in the past. Therefore, I have become very selective with who I allow into my heart. I am also a planner. If I'm going to fall, I want to know when I'm going to fall, how I'm going to fall, and what exactly I'm going to fall on. Then I read a few verses in Hebrews that brought me back down to earth. Hebrews 11:7-12 says "It was by faith that Noah built a large boat to save his family from the flood. He obeyed God, who warned him about things that had never happened before. By his faith Noah condemned the rest of the world, and he received the righteousness that comes by faith. It was by faith that Abraham obeyed when God called him to leave home and go to another land that God would give him as his inheritance. He went without knowing where he was going. And even when he reached the land God promised him, he lived there by faith—for he was like a foreigner, living in tents. And so did Isaac and Jacob, who inherited the same promise. Abraham was confidently looking forward to a city with eternal foundations, a city designed and built by God. It was by faith that even Sarah was able to have a child, though she was barren and was too old. She believed that God would keep his promise. And so a whole nation came from this one man who was as good as dead—a nation with so many people that, like the stars in the sky and the sand on the seashore, there is no way to count them" (Hebrews 11:7-12 NLT).

You see, all of the people mentioned in these verses (and many others throughout the Bible) had to simply trust God. The natural thing to do (at least for me) is to doubt. How could I go somewhere without knowing where I am going? Why would I plan to accomplish something without knowing if it's even going to happen? In this life it is so easy to get discouraged by circumstances or the people around you, but Hebrews also says "Faith is the confidence that what we hope for will actually happen; it gives us assurance about things we cannot see" (Hebrews 11:1 NLT). God knows how stubborn I can be, yet He tells me I need to trust him. I have to trust that He knows what He is doing. I have to trust that His plans for me are much better than the plans I have for myself. I have to trust that He is going to do exactly what He says He is going to do. It worked put in the end for Noah and Abraham, didn't it?

I know many of you reading this are telling yourself, "Steph, what you are saing is a lot easier said than done". Trust me when I say I understand! I have been where you are. Friends, God has great things in store for you. If your lungs are taking in air, there is a purpose God still needs you to fulfill. You may not see where your future is headed, but God already knows where you have been, where you are, and where you are going. Just obey His word and have faith, and He will show you just how powerful He is. So my question for you is, what is holding you back from trusting Him? Your finances? A relationship? Your health? Whatever it is, my challenge to you would be to look whatever "it" is in the eyes and say, "My God is GREATER than anything I could possibly be going through". Stay Strong!

And I am certain that God, who began the good work within you, will continue his work until it is finally finished on the day when Christ Jesus returns. (Philippians 1:6 NLT)

Unexpected Opprotunites

When I was invited to attended the Teen Wolf EyeCon 2014, I became extremely nervous. I did not know what to expect! It was my first convention ever with actors I have loved for years! What was I going to say to them? How was I going to make connections with people I didn't know over a weekend? I became so anxious about it, I considered not going at all. Since not going at all was clearly not an option, I swallowed my fears and braced myself for what I thought was going to be a long weekend. I also remember going to the convention only caring about meeting one specific actor. Little did I know how things were going to change. 

When I got to the hotel room, something told me to remember God. There was nothing stopping me from using this opportunity, despite how unlikely, to spread God's light somehow. By the end of the convention, the actors that I really didn't care to meet turned out to be the best part of the convention. They were so insightful, inspiring, and actually really fun to be around! To one autograph signing, I wore my "Keep Clam and Pray On" shirt and one of the actors complimented me on it! I was also able to connect with someone who really needed to release hurt from the past and slowly but surely make her way back to God.

A perfect example of this is Paul. In Philippians 1:12-14, Paul writes, "And I want you to know, my dear brothers and sisters, that everything that has happened to me here has helped to spread the Good News. For everyone here, including the whole palace guard, knows that I am in chains because of Christ. And because of my imprisonment, most of the believers here have gained confidence and boldly speak God’s message without fear." (Philippians 1:12-14 NLT). Even when he was in prison, he took the opportunity to preach the gospel to others! What excuse do we have? 

This weekend turned out to be the complete opposite of what I thought it was going to be. God was able to take a very unlikely situation and use it to spread his light through me! Use your testimony to help someone else who may be going through what you are going through. Never underestimate what God can do and never be too afraid to miss an amazing opportunity to spread God's love!

Two White Towels

Quite personally, I know first hand that one of the hardest things to struggle with as a Christian is purity. Many of us, including myself, have once thought, "How could God accept me after I've already blown it?" "It's too late for me. I can't erase what I have done". Well, the last statement is true. You can't erase what you've done or said, but you have to recognize that the first statements are lies the enemy wants you to believe to keep you from moving on and away from God's love. Now as you read this entry, you can apply this to sexual purity or purity of the body, but I am referring to purity in life in general. The interpretation is up to you. 

I am currently reading a fantastic book called Before You Meet Prince Charming by Sarah Mally and she explains purity using an analogy of two white towels. At first glance, there is no difference between the two. They are both white and clean. However, the first towel is clean because no one has touched it while the second towel is clean because someone took the time and effort to wash it. If you have never done anything wrong in your life, congratulations! You would obviously be represented by the first towel. Keep up the great work my friend! For the other 99.9% of humanity, your towel could have been so dirty, it was black! The good news is, Jesus is able to wash our towel so clean, one could not tell that there was ever a stain. 

This analogy changed my perspective on purity. You see, Jesus places high importance on purity that comes from the heart. Jesus explains purity by saying "First wash the inside of the cup and the dish, and then the outside will become clean, too" (Matthew 23:26 NLT). Every new relationship or situation is a new opportunity to follow God's word, regardless of how many times you have messed up before. Don't believe the lies of the enemy! Take time to cleanse your heart and mind with the God's word and let go of the past. The rest will fall right into place in due time. Stay Strong!

God blesses those whose hearts are pure, for they will see God. (Matthew 5:8 NLT)

Forgiveness

I had an amazing revelation about a lesson I have heard a million times before but never seemed to grasp: forgiveness. You see, I realized I was walking around with a weight on my shoulders of the past. I wouldn't allow myself to let people come into my heart without a fight because of scars left by previous people. I would go around doubting myself and my abilities because of my past failures. On top of that, I would wonder why I wasn't receiving certain blessings and why I felt like my life was stuck in a rut. Then I listened to a teaching my pastor gave on forgiveness and I decided that I was no longer going to allow my bitterness and doubt to run my life. I decided to let go of the hurt and the pain people have caused me. How could I move on with my life if I am still stuck on the past? After all, Jesus suffered the most out of all of us by the hands of ones he came to save and he still asked the Father to forgive us. Then after I listened to that teaching, it just so happened that part of my Bible Reading of the day was Genisis 50:19-21 which is when Joseph forgives his brothers for all the wrong they have done to him. Joseph said that what they did to harm him, God used for his good and that he would continue to care for them. When I read that, my first thought was how could Joseph so easily forgive his brothers for beating him and selling him to slavery? Then I thought, well if Joseph could forgive his brothers after everything they did to him, there is no reason why I can't forgive the people that have hurt me. Now let's just be honest for a moment, I'm not saying forgiveness is easy. It is not that simple to just say, "I'm going to forgive everyone who has ever hurt me". However, I had to make the choice for myself that I am no longer going to allow those people to have any power over me. I am choosing to forgive them and myself for my past mistakes because God has already forgiven me! I'm deciding to empower myself rather than beat myself up because beating myself up gets me no where. Healing may not happen overnight, but it has to start somewhere. Choose to forgive and feel the weight lifted off your shoulders. It is one of the most important and most rewarding decisions you will ever make. Guaranteed.

“If you forgive those who sin against you, your heavenly Father will forgive you. But if you refuse to forgive others, your Father will not forgive your sins" (Matthew 6:14-15 NLT)