Drying my Tears

Things don’t feel like they should.
Or maybe things just feel different.
Things feel like they are falling apart all around me.
Whatever it is, I feel as if I can’t stop it.

I sit here thinking of both the past and the present.
I feel the tears rolling down my face.
As if waterfalls came out of nowhere.
I feel as if I can’t stop it.

I put away his things.
Thinking that maybe it will help.
But the pain is still here.
The hurt is something I can’t stop.

What happens now?
What does my future hold?
Did I do the right thing?
All of these questions that I can’t stop.

I find my devotional next to me.
I begin to read it to myself.
One particular line grabs a hold of me.
“GOD wants to dry your tears”.

It’s time to try something new.
It’s time to face my fear of change.
It’s time to begin the healing process.
It’s time to dry my tears.

GOD is with me now.
Just like He always has been.
I need to trust in him.
I need to dry my tears.

Life is not ending,
Yet it is just beginning.
It doesn’t matter what anyone may say.
I am finally drying my tears.

My Message To The World

There is a difference between sexy and beautiful. Most women and teens feel that they can not be one without the other. As for me, I do not want to be looked at as sexy. Calling me things like hot or attractive makes me feel like you are only looking at body parts attached to a pretty face. Don't get me wrong, I enjoy going to the beach in a two piece to show off my body every now and then, but I am more than a pretty face. I am a human being, not a sweet dessert you can enjoy for a while and then store for later when you have had your fill. If you can not get past my looks and see me for me, you don't truly love me. I rather be called beautiful, ravishing, or radiant. I know I am not perfect, but I will prove to the world that I am not a force to be reckoned with. Love me for me or don't love me at all.

Charm is deceptive, and beauty does not last; but a woman who fears the LORD will be greatly praised. (Proverbs 31:30 NLT)